The Fullness of Purpose

What are you waiting for?
What can you draw inspiration, motivation, willingness from, in this moment? All you ever do is wait and worry. You've lost all sense of joy for the little things. You spend your days forgetting what you already know. Your soul - sad and desolate. You're reaching that single point of desperation..the point that changes everything and turns it all around. Balance of mind seems inconceivable, however. You think of the future. No, you worry about the future. Mixed with the worry of right now. You worry about the work to be done. You worry about time.
Time is equal to love...and yet you have none. No time. No love.
People say you're too hard on yourself...but how would they know when you don't even know. How can people say that and yet still uphold all the same expectations.
Where does your heart SING? ..not here. not now.
One day. One day she'll dance again.


This is your life, are you who you wanna be?   

All Our Guardian Angels and Patron Saints, Pray For Us

Something just dawned on me...

Be very careful of who you are willing to change yourself for in order to gain their approval. They may not be who you thought they were.


Woah that's extremely relevant right now. .

“Learning to think rigorously, so as to act rightly and to serve humanity better.” -Pope JPII

Day By Day We're The Same, Like A Metronome In Time

To tell you the truth, it's everyones fault and it's noone's fault.

A lesson of control will be forever in the plan for my life, I believe.

Hell, by the time I'm finished learning from all the mistakes I will make in my life..I'll be the absolute smartest version of myself! I will know every outcome of every action I will ever take. It's meant to be this way, but it's always still a strange phenomenon to me; we know every part of our past, but absolutely nothing about the future..except that we have one.

"In this world I'm starting to see...that there's more to life, than me." (FX of Grace - Standing Strong)
That lesson is always a painful reality and often harder to learn than the time before.

What's worse...to be constantly reminded of all the things you don't know or to be constantly reminded of all the things you already know but have forgotten?
My opinion changes depending on the situation...maybe I should just agree that they're both equally as disheartening in the time of the circumstance. In the first, you're faced not knowing until after the fact. In the second, you have noone to blame but yourself; nothing but the fact that you forgot to think before you spoke or acted.

"Fall down seven times, stand up eight."

As long as I'm human...I will make mistakes. I will speak when I shouldn't. I will stay quiet when I'm meant to be heard. I will accuse. I will respond negatively.
HOWEVER...As long as I'm human...I will make mistakes, yes. But I resolve to speak kindly and repay when I falter. I resolve to stop making excuses for why I can't overcome my selfishness of being insensitive towards others and then expect to be even looked at when I'm in my own place of darkness.
And finally, I resolve that while not speaking negatively about others...I will not speak negatively about myself. That's an important one..I seriously believe that how you treat yourself comes out in how you treat others. How can I believe in someone else if I can't believe in myself? It's only possible by way of a lie which, being a lie, makes it untrue and therefore, not possible at all.


Girl, don't you know, that there's a God that loves you and He's smiling down on you. Right here, right now. And He wants the best for you, girl. He's not pretending so..don't waste your heart on something smaller than love.

This One Is For You And Me, Living Out Our Dreams

This morning at mass...a couple celebrating their 60th wedding anniversary stood in front of hundreds of people and re-commited their lives to each other by renewing their vows.
All I can say is that someday...All I want is to be able to stand beside my husband of 60 years and tell him that I'm more in love now than the day I married him.

S i x t y . y e a r s .

That is a lot of life to live.

She Hates the Sound That Goodbyes Make

What do I think? I think you're incredible.

What do I think? I think I've never understood you.

What do I think? I think that if you can move me to tears by simply the written word, I

should give you a whole lot more credit than I have.

What would I say? I'd say you're incredible.

What would I say? I'd say I've never understood you.

What would I say? I'd say the tears don't come often.

What should I do? I should make sure you know how incredible you are.

What should I do? I should try to understand you.

What should I do? I should cry in front of you.


The truth is...I knew. I knew and yet I didn't give you the chance to shine for me.

I made the torment of life harder.

I couldn't make sense of it.

I see it now.

...It's never too late to be brand new.


What do I think?

What would I say?

What should I do?

I think I love you.
I'd say I love you.
I should show you just how much I really do love you.


...Or should I?

Oh. My. Goodness.

A Way to Make Love Stay: You've Got To Give It Away

"There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to see the ways in which you yourself have altered"

- Nelson Mandela

Whether it be a place, or a moment, a memory, or a friendship... we've changed from who we once were.

The simple decision to give in.

You give in so that you'll fit in.

Then, in that moment..you know you've been altered.

Someone once told me, "do what makes your heart SING. That is where you are meant to be."

Then, in that moment of alteration...your soul forgets the words, your pulse forgets the rhythm, your brain forgets the melody and your heart forgets who you were.

You forget.

The change is swift and takes your very identity.

If you can't face yourself. . .who, then, do you have.

What is it that you are willing to risk losing?  The things that keep your very life? Are you willing to lose the song your heart sings?


. . . . I'm not.

w e a l l b l e e d r e d .

Sometimes...what I tell other people is more to convince myself.

"You're worth the world."

"You'll get through it."

And I'm a selfish person, it seems. Hard times have altered nothing in my past that would effect my future.

Clearly it's a terrifying understanding.. To know that what affects my future is more likely my now.

How is it that I could be so confident in my future when it is the present that is crumbling before me?

How is it that other peoples life-changing mistakes are but a fraction to mine, of which some would call, petty?

But they eat at my very soul.

I'm controlled.

Then, discipline is the answer.

I have the right to believe in my dreams.

I have the ability to over come.

One

Action

At

A

Time.

Truly, an intention without action should not have been a thought in the first place.

"Will you deny me?"

I can't Lord, by my choice to love.

"I want you to live, I want you to love. I want to see that smile again...I want you to live."

I know...another youtube video. W A T C H. I T. You will not regret that you did :)

You are beautiful, you are loved and there is a reason you're here today! Share your story..use it to inspire others. You're not alone in this crazy thing we call life. Live everyday like it's the last day you've got! Don't let ANYTHING or ANYONE hold you back from the person you're meant to become! Today is your day to make it all happen. The past doesn't have to depict your future. Choose that today will be different. Take this little bit of a strangers encouragement and use it! With every morning, what is old has been made new and completely transformed.

Cliche? YES! absolutely. True? It has to be!

Don't You Worry Your Pretty Little Mind, People Throw Rocks at Things That SHINE

Dear Future Husband,

I believe that you're worth waiting for..so I'm going to wait for you. I love you enough that even when I might be tempted by passion before marrying you, my answer will remain no.
I pray for you...a lot, actually. I pray for your purity, your courage and your dignity.
If you're ever with another girl before we meet..it's okay, I trust you. But protect her...she's somebody else's wife and he deserves all of her.
Now, in high school, my friends make fun of me for getting asked out but always turning boys down. I'll never admit it, but I guess I'm a little afraid of making myself so vulnerable to someone and giving them complete power to potentially destroy me..

But when I find you, I'll know...

..Because you'll be the only person who's worth that kind of risk.

Love,
Your future wife.

You'll Always Be Love's Great Martyr

"Man is born free; and everywhere he is in chains."      

                                          - Jean-Jacques Rousseau

How true! Is it fair to say that 50% of the time we chain ourselves in? Perhaps it's actually a total of 100% seeing as man makes every possible item that might chain us down. And perhaps it's a terrible struggle to oppose the chains of our time from completely burying  us in lies of who we are.
Now this quote came from my grade 12 Ideologies social textbook. Who knew that someone who lived way before I was born could speak to exactly what we are susceptible to in today's society. That is the profanity and propaganda that makes up our very surroundings. It seems to me that we do a whole lot of talking and not enough fixing, considering this was an issue back in 1712. Or just maybe, we do too much fixing that result in a dangerous short-term numbness of reality?
Will we ever learn?
Are these "chains" necessary in allowing us to choose what we believe?
It's truly a shame that these are the very things that hold us back from reaching our full potential sooner...or at all.
It is an even greater loss that it's too complicated to tackle this issue in a crunch of time. Our 'quick-fix' society waits for nobody or nothing that can't be ordered through a drive-thru and slapped together in a matter of minutes.


We are chained in by the fear of giving up our comfort should we truly live selflessly.

Why is it that common sense is no longer common?

K bro, do you even know the words, "I'm sorry, I was wrong" ?
Excuses make me sick! And I do it too. We spend so much time making excuses and we've become so good at them that people believe every. one. Again and again. Over and over.

But seriously, you, my friend, need to re-evaluate. It is impossible to even try to justify why it is that you're living the kind of lifestyle you are.

Y o u w i l l n o t a l w a y s b e r i g h t .

You will not always be right.
You will NOT always be right.

Are we clear? Own up to your mistakes. Maybe you fool some people, but I see right through those lazy excuses. You're not fooling me and you're definitely not fooling yourself. It's time.

Stitch Me Up Right - Natalie Ivnik

http://natalieivnik.com/media.htm

Beauty <3

Just Keep Your Head Above, Swim

Tomorrow is the last first day of my entire high school career. Whew, wheredoesthetimego?!

This year will be an incredible challenge of:

• Time management
• Perseverance
• Mental and emotional strength
• The courage to say no
• Self-motivation
• Humility
• Maintaining a prayer life

Challenge Accepted.

The Edge of Decision

"How can I stand beneath the breath of God and not be humbled? How can I stand in God's presence and not be moved?"

Never has it been said that one who exists ever really lives. ...Profound, I know.
Ignite, AB 2011 was a wake up call. Belief is very literally a matter of life or death. And the time is now to make a difference. The salvation of your soul is at risk.
There is a battle between love and hate. Good and bad. The truth and what is false. The side of evil wants you JUST as bad as the side of great glory. just as bad. Because you are that important. I have a feeling that we're worth a whole lot more then we think we are. "You will always have the power to choose..." Yes it's true, the choice is ours. Some of us have already picked. In a great sense, well yes, we choose our own fate, destiny or what have you.
Why were we given the power of free will? Well I believe it's because when you choose to do good, choose to be good and choose to think of goodness, you have also made the preponderant choice to love.
In choosing love, we choose God Himself. There can be nothing greater, nothing better, nothing at all, but God alone.
And I'm not ashamed, I'm unworthy.
And I'm not brainwashed, I choose the truth.


Our heart is restless until we rest in God.

Who Says?

Why do I feel awkward and out of place?

Umm..that state of mind I find myself in randomly that is the state of just simply being and not actually living. WHY? That state of considerable exhaustion and faked sickness.
It's also a sort of embarrassment because I'm incapable at keeping my mouth shut, but mostly, because I'm now afraid of what people think of me. Wow..such an amateur mistake. Now when it comes to clothes or how I look, the possible judgement of others rarely ever crosses my mind at all. However, when it comes to words..or anything that provides a speck of my own vulnerability. . .I could just die in a dark hole. Embarrassment. Awkwardness. Apathetic.
It's truly sad. I don't know, maybe those words were divinely inspired. We'll see.

It's such a funny thing, how nothings funny when it's you.

Caught in the Inbetween of Beautiful Disaster

She loves her momma's lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes make

She prays one day she'll find someone to need her

She swears that there's no difference between the lies and compliments

It's all the same if everybody leaves her

And every magazine tells her she's not good enough

The pictures that she sees makes her cry

She would change everything, everything, just ask her

Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster

She just needs someone to take her home

She's giving boys what they want

Tries to act so nonchalant

Afraid to see that she's lost her direction

She never stays the same for long

Assuming that she'll get it wrong

Perfect only in her imperfection

She's not a drama queen

She doesn't wanna feel this way

Only 17 and tired, yeah

She would change everything for happy ever after

Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster

She just needs someone to take her home

She's just the way she is

But no one's told her that's OK

She would change everything, everything, just ask her

Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster

She would change everything for happy ever after

Caught in the in between of beautiful disaster

She just needs someone to take her home

She just needs someone to take her home



I know too much.

I know his side but that awkward moment when you have to pretend you know nothing when talking to her. Wow this might cause another sleepless night. I always do this. Will I ever learn? And then you get everything all mixed up in your head and can't remember who said what and you take forever to decide if something is okay to say and you still have doubts because you're afraid of saying the wrong thing and making the situation worse.
ohhhh dearrrrr. Good one, self...

Oh The Places You'll Go

Here I am again, thinking about the future. This time I'm excited about it though. I have one very tough grade 12 year to get through and then I'm FREE!
I was thinking and praying and hoping and searching for what I'm supposed to do when I finish high school. Dreading the question, "what are you going to do after high school?" And e v e r y o n e asks like, are they just making conversation or do they actually care what I do with my life?
Well, regardless I think I have my answer. I'm taking a year off to most likely join the NET team. Basically I realized that this is what I've always wanted to do. To travel while sharing my faith and inspiring others the way I have been inspired. It simply joy! And all the questions of why? how? with what money? what if? what about the future? Are suddenly answered by the simple counter-question of, why not? Hello...this is your future. Money will come, trust God. What if what? What if you don't immediately go to university and people judge you because the world has certain expectations that you're clearly not going to meet. "Sometimes you have to dissapoint others in order to not dissapoint God."
Now it's not to say I'll never go to university. No, just not now.
People always say.."Oh you're young, you've got plenty of time." Uhh actually, the way I see it, time is ticking and I'm ready! I mean, what are these people thinking, encouraging me to wait and wait. What, exactly, am I waiting for? Waiting for someone else to do what I'm meant to do? Umm yeah, no!
Change is not made by people who simply wait for opportunities, they're made by the people who choose to be proactive and create oppotunities. Made by people who finally decide that they simply can't stand it anymore.
These are the people who are no longer 'average' or 'ordinary,' but extraordinary and they're also commonly known as the saints of the church. We're all called to be saints. So riddle me this...WHY can we simply stand to sit still?

THIS MOMENT IS AN OPPORTUNITY.

Little Miss I'll Take Less

You put a price tag on your body, but the money goes towards paying your guilt and shame.
You've given yourself as an object to claim.
And they whisper loud enough so you can hear every word that rips you down and makes you to blame.

I wish you could know the wealth I know and I with you could see the beauty I see.
I want you to escape this sad reality.
You're not worth the pain and shame and that ugly fame. Oh, it's all the same.
And the lies that you believe that you're not worth the best.
But girl, forget the rest.

You're worth it to be loved.

Downtown it such a chilly place. Oh you'd know, you know.
Is it lonely when they ask that man you're with where he picked you up?
To them you're just another case.
Someone who doesn't deserve a chance, you're just one more face.

I'm serious I'm cryyyyyying from laughing right now

“Stay where you are. Find your own Calcutta. Find the sick, the suffering and the lonely right there where you are — in your own homes and in your own families, in your workplaces and in your schools. … You can find Calcutta all over the world, if you have the eyes to see. Everywhere, wherever you go, you find people who are unwanted, unloved, uncared for, just rejected by society — completely forgotten, completely left alone.”

~ Blessed Mother Teresa

Maybe I'm Wrong, But Maybe I'm Ready

Is today Wednesday? hahaa it's definitely Tuesday.. SIXMOREDAYSOFSCHOOL! I can't wait! And not just to have the freedom that summer brings with it's beautiful weather and brilliant colours, but also to be able to leave my school books behind long enough to actually change the world. I'm not quite sure how, nor do I know if it will be significant to any more than just a few. To be able to leave my house with the excuse that "it's summer" which only works for two and a half months of the year makes my excitement level b u r s t

Planning this summer has been pretty high up there on the priority list since basically when last summer ended! However, unlike any other summer, I've set this one up for a chance at incredible opportunities. We'll see how it plays out. I can only imagine what is instore for me. So I've made plans, but open ended plans. Room for improvisation and schedual changes. It kind of describes the way I live. Planned, but room for "error."  Should something much bigger come up then I could ever fathom.

I can already smell the campfires and hear the songs and feel the sunlight.

God Loves You, Be Happy

Teary Eyes and Compromise

You know when it's none of your business, but you get involved anyways because you truly want to help a friend and you feel the need to personally fix every situation? Maybe that's just me.

I knew it hurt and I knew she worried and I knew it weighed on her heart. I knew all these things just as much as I know she'll be alright. But how easy is for me to say that with all the conviction in my heart when she can't even get the whole situation out of her mind for even a second.
Were finding together what it means to survive every hurdle. But it's not surviving anymore, it's overcoming. We face trials so then, we acquire the means to overcome. No, it may never get easier, but here's to proving that it's worth it.
There are some pretty incredible people in this world and the situation might not always be ideal, but there is a plan and it is a perfect one.

Let go over the fear. Let go of the doubt. Let the life that you lead be all that you need.

"Music Heals, That's What I'm Counting On."

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL.
Firstly, I just have to say this, otherwise I might go crazy...we all make mistakes. Sometimes they decide, but they don't have to define.

I've decided I need to shed some light on this blog. Really, school is a huge burden right now and I'm forgetting to look for the little things that, among their simplicity, fill my days with joy. I find myself starring at this enormous load of everything and being so over-whelmed I'd rather do nothing about it. The truth is, I don't know where to start. Actually, nevermind..I do. I really am going to need a possible miracle to get me through these, give or take, next ten days. I am nothing and I can do nothing without the mercy, compassion, strength and unconditional love of my heavenly Father.
Keep your eyes fixed. This life isn't about receiving praise.


To live intentionally is to live without excuses.

BRB Just going to finalize our wedding plans...=)

Josh Groban - You Are Loved [Don't Give Up] (Video)

The Lord Himself will fight for you. You have only to stand still.

-Exodus 14:14

Given The Chance. . .

If I had the opportunity to speak to parents..well I have a few pointers:

The thing with the society that your children have been brought up in is that we're c o n s t a n t l y surrounded by noise and we're prime at multi-tasking and blocking out specific noise when necessary. Yelling until you're blue in the face may feel effective, but well, we're choosing not to hear it.
The worst thing in the entire world you can say to your kid is that you're disappointed in them. Speak those words and you've just won the argument. Guaranteed.
Better yet, cry. I'm being serious. It works.

This is sounding harsh..I'm not angry at my parental unit or anything, I'm just simply stating what would honestly work out.

Also, if you talk calmly about why you are so upset..we may roll our eyes. We can roll our eyes, but we can stillllll hear you. Keep talking.
Don't make your son or daughter doubt how much you love them. If we can't count on that, nothing in the world is worth anything anymore.

Don't be a hypocrite.

As long as we are your kids and you are our parents, we'll all make mistakes.
As long as you're human..you'll make mistakes while parenting us. Do the best you can. There are few things that your child may choose not to forgive you for. Don't take that for granted. Give your kids a little more credit. This life is a hard one and we're good people just trying to figure it out for ourselves. Trust that you've done all you can to teach your children good morals and values and that they will find it within themselves to honour those truths. Have just a little more faith. Letting go at the right time isn't an option...it is a mandatory process in life.

The End.

Demand More From Yourself Then Anyone Ever Expects

I was contemplating going to sleep or pulling an all-nighter to do homework, but then I decided against both and figured I should put my thoughts causing my sleeplessness into words for anyone in the world with access to a computer and the ability to steal someones wifi to read...but probably won't.

You know, I look around and I seem to see people who live care-free and unabsorbed by the questions of "am I truthful?" "am I humble?" "am I doing everything I can?" ... "am I good enough?" Lately my world has been that of a trench of lukewarmness (I hate that word) I can climb myself out and the joy I am able to feel at that moment becomes indescribable with words, but still 1/100th of an even greater joy I have yet to know. My definition of hope, if anyone ever asked, would be something like that.
It's weird..and hard to explain. If this is what they call "falling apart," I will deny it every time!

Jealousy has always been prevalent in our society's incapability to be grateful for what we have. I struggle with it too. In comparison to other people, how do I measure up? Am I doing enough? I can't even count how many times I consciously or sub-consciously ask myself that question. Am I doing enough? I've always had a heart for giving, but I wonder, will I ever know the satisfaction that I'm doing enough or is that not meant to be? Is the yearning to always do more the driving force that makes a proactive personality? I sure hope so!
I've been described as an introvert with extrovert qualities. That's completely correct, I think. Yes, I would much rather sit behind this computer screen sharing my thoughts for complete strangers to read than actually go out and meet people, but that's just the thing, yeah I have to force myself to be out-going and enthusiastic and, psychologically, it wears. me. out. But! If that is what the "heart of a missionary" or a "proactive spirit" or a "witness of love" entails..I will put in the work that apparently comes naturally to others.
Re-evaluating the life I have and saying 'yes, it will be hard and you might have to put in more than you think you're capable of sometimes' is not exactly ..motivating, but it is necessary.

Knowing who I am is one thing, but knowing I am loved, with all my flaws, big as I may make them, is a story my soul hasn't completed writing yet. Life is a process. A bitter-sweet process. One I wish I could speed up and one that I need not waste another second of.

"It's not love that is blind, but jealousy." 

T H I N G S

I didn't write this. I found it while creeping on someone's facebook page. It's extremely insightful and I'm storing it away for future reference. It's not only insightful...it kind of blew my mind.


Things


by Mark Drapal on Friday, 05 June 2009 at 23:04.

I'm a slave.

My time is not my own.

I would say that I live for things that waste my time, but I'd be lying...I don't live at all.

It's amazing how things can control your life. THINGS. Things made for people.



Well forget the people just give me the things because I'd rather be with "them" anyway.

Things don't yell, or argue, or frown at you, or throw you around like a mannequin head. Things don't swear or spit in your face or cut off your tongue, or look at you like you're an idiot when you make a mistake.

Things leave you alone.



Things don't ask you about your day, things don't ask you if you're ok, things don't tussle your hair or poke you around, or stuff you full, and embarrass the hell out of you. Things don't touch all your stuff and move it around and clean up after you. Things don't ask you stupid questions.



Things don't smile, or joke, or kid. Things don't play. Things don't spend time on you, or work for you or make any sort of sacrifice for you. Things don't laugh. Things don't cry. Things don't smile...again. Things don't make you breakfast, lunch or supper. Things don't make you warm when you really need to be, things don't fix you snacks, or fail horribly at games. Things don't make you laugh, or smile, or feel.

Things...don't.



Things leave you alone.

They leave you very much alone.

.

I've Learned to Never Underestimate, The Impossible

My dad lately has been asking more questions and talking to me more about school and life. Even though I'm convinced that sometimes I disappoint him, he has never failed to make sure I know that he is proud of me. It's especially important today, May 1st, my last full month of school and I have so much school work to do it's not even funny. You know, at this point I would be deemed by most as a lost cause. . .heck, if I didn't have people who believe in me, I would be a lost cause. But the effort he's putting in now means more than the world to me. really.
Sometimes I know he feels like he can't give us everything we want and that somehow he's failed us.
It b r e a k s m y h e a r t and allowing him to feel like he hasn't given me the world would be my biggest regret.

Be gentle with your parents. There are so many without a mom or dad..taking my own for granted at times is not acceptable.

Tell someone that you love them - tomorrow is unfortunately not guaranteed.

Beauty, Humility, Kindness - It's Simply Undeniable

You've Got a Gypsy Soul to Blame And You Were Born For Leaving

I find that people come to me with their problems, concerns, prayers and fears. I love that. And I'm happy to help a n y o n e that comes.
Today was a good day : ) All too often I find it overwhelming. Why? I blame my heart...that might sound a tad cheesy, but I feel what others feel. and it's a beautiful thing.

I stand in complete awe when someone opens their heart to say what they're feeling or what's happening. The strength of a person never ceases to amaze me. The good in a single person is the definition of hope.
In many ways, these people have far more strength than I. And even when the depth of their hurt hits me and I am crushed under their burden..they have the courage to ask for help. Courage is strength in my books. And I would g l a d l y help them with what they can't handle on their own.  

The most awful thing is to live in fear of saying the wrong thing. I have to say that I understand the power of a word. Although some words are forgotten, they're not always forgiven. And this is where I bring God into it. I offer my conversations, my sympathy, my words, all to Him who gives me the strength to help with the crosses others carry.

In your life, you're given the means by which to change a life. Don't ever waste that gift.

When There's Noone Left To Blame But Yourself

You seemed so sure of yourself. When we met in gym class I thought you were the most ballin' kid on the court. The kind of person I'd instantly want to become friends with.
So I pursued that friendship. It was the best. We killed ourselves laughing and did no work on a regular basis and we were okay with that. Your jokes, your stories, your funny faces..I cried laughing.

I cry for another reason now. Tears of joy are out of the question. The thing is, you've changed.
The drinking. The anger. The drugs. The people. The future. "Don't think, just let go."

It. kills. me.  
I'm not really gonna accept "I grew up." No-you stopped fighting for what's good in life because, it got a little tough? It got a little shaky? You were never one to back down from a challenge. That's faith, girl. Come back, Superstar.

The girl that never stopped believing in you misses you.  

Break My Heart For What Breaks Yours

Let love be genuine; hate what is evil, hold fast to what is good; love one another with mutual affection; outdo one another in showing honour. Do not lag in zeal, be ardent in spirit, serve the Lord. Rejoice in hope, be patient in suffering, persevere in prayer. Contribute to the needs of the saints; extend hospitality to strangers.

Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another; do not claim to be wiser than you are. So not repay evil for evil, but take thought from what is noble in sight of all. If it is possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave room for the wrath of God; for it is written, "Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord." No, "if your enemies are hungry, feed them; if they are thirsty, give them something to drink; for by doing this you will heap burning coals on their heads." Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

Romans 19: 9-22

They say to have no regrets. I have one.
 I regret becoming
 caught up in the most pointless
 of attention-sick lies aka drama

"If you're lucky enough to be different that everyone else, never change" - tswift:)

'Cause We Only Have One Life; The Timing and the Moment All Seem So Right

On Earth and Heaven Above, What Do I Know of this Love

I am beginning to see the grace of God at work in my life every day. Mostly through courage. Courage to live out my witness of love in the world. We are all called for this. And called to be saints. It's an aspiring goal that some would deem as impossible in our society and time. I would argue that although it will never be easy, this era has the ability to produce the most holy of people.

Stand firm. Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the wrk of the Lord because you know that your labour in the Lord is not in vain. -1 Cor 15:58

Curiousity: Because the Cat Wasn't Sufficient

I guess we’re all a little power-hungry or curious – maybe that’s a better word for what we know as Gossip – a thirst for the knowledge that we’re considered “special,” “important” should we know her. And she travels like wildfire – known fact – she craves to be known and we crave to know. And it’s blown out of proportion and ruins what we call ‘relationships’ and ‘friendships’ – ‘trust-systems’ if you want – also a known fact. Why is she so interesting? She has what we do not. This lie we call knowledge – not educated, academic knowledge, but the kind of social knowledge you have to know in order to hold a conversation with anyone who happens to know her. Don’t get me wrong, we come to know her by feeding our starving incapacity for realizing what is and is not our place in the situation and we strive for her and we can’t deny that. She’ll cause a chain-reaction or something like domino's or opening a box of Smarties and only eating one – yeah right! I would have reason to suspect anorexia because that is past the point of your greatest attempt at will-power – she’ll tempt you with having what you want to have. And I’ll go back. . .I am back – it’s my weakest moment, my point of hopeless vulnerability when I place my trust in her failing, guilt-filled, deceiving lies of who I am. But I won’t be defined by her worthlessness to me.

I’m writing, mostly, to reassure myself that my self-worth comes from the morals and the truth built within me while sadly, the true-selves of girls are being lost, tortured and made unrecognizable by a man-made killer named Gossip in all her fame and glory.