Day By Day We're The Same, Like A Metronome In Time

To tell you the truth, it's everyones fault and it's noone's fault.

A lesson of control will be forever in the plan for my life, I believe.

Hell, by the time I'm finished learning from all the mistakes I will make in my life..I'll be the absolute smartest version of myself! I will know every outcome of every action I will ever take. It's meant to be this way, but it's always still a strange phenomenon to me; we know every part of our past, but absolutely nothing about the future..except that we have one.

"In this world I'm starting to see...that there's more to life, than me." (FX of Grace - Standing Strong)
That lesson is always a painful reality and often harder to learn than the time before.

What's worse...to be constantly reminded of all the things you don't know or to be constantly reminded of all the things you already know but have forgotten?
My opinion changes depending on the situation...maybe I should just agree that they're both equally as disheartening in the time of the circumstance. In the first, you're faced not knowing until after the fact. In the second, you have noone to blame but yourself; nothing but the fact that you forgot to think before you spoke or acted.

"Fall down seven times, stand up eight."

As long as I'm human...I will make mistakes. I will speak when I shouldn't. I will stay quiet when I'm meant to be heard. I will accuse. I will respond negatively.
HOWEVER...As long as I'm human...I will make mistakes, yes. But I resolve to speak kindly and repay when I falter. I resolve to stop making excuses for why I can't overcome my selfishness of being insensitive towards others and then expect to be even looked at when I'm in my own place of darkness.
And finally, I resolve that while not speaking negatively about others...I will not speak negatively about myself. That's an important one..I seriously believe that how you treat yourself comes out in how you treat others. How can I believe in someone else if I can't believe in myself? It's only possible by way of a lie which, being a lie, makes it untrue and therefore, not possible at all.


Girl, don't you know, that there's a God that loves you and He's smiling down on you. Right here, right now. And He wants the best for you, girl. He's not pretending so..don't waste your heart on something smaller than love.