Monday, October 24, 2011
Day By Day We're The Same, Like A Metronome In Time
To tell you the truth, it's everyones fault and it's noone's fault.
A lesson of control will be forever in the plan for my life, I believe.
Hell, by the time I'm finished learning from all the mistakes I will make in my life..I'll be the absolute smartest version of myself! I will know every outcome of every action I will ever take. It's meant to be this way, but it's always still a strange phenomenon to me; we know every part of our past, but absolutely nothing about the future..except that we have one.
"In this world I'm starting to see...that there's more to life, than me." (FX of Grace - Standing Strong)
That lesson is always a painful reality and often harder to learn than the time before.
What's worse...to be constantly reminded of all the things you don't know or to be constantly reminded of all the things you already know but have forgotten?
My opinion changes depending on the situation...maybe I should just agree that they're both equally as disheartening in the time of the circumstance. In the first, you're faced not knowing until after the fact. In the second, you have noone to blame but yourself; nothing but the fact that you forgot to think before you spoke or acted.
HOWEVER...As long as I'm human...I will make mistakes, yes. But I resolve to speak kindly and repay when I falter. I resolve to stop making excuses for why I can't overcome my selfishness of being insensitive towards others and then expect to be even looked at when I'm in my own place of darkness.
And finally, I resolve that while not speaking negatively about others...I will not speak negatively about myself. That's an important one..I seriously believe that how you treat yourself comes out in how you treat others. How can I believe in someone else if I can't believe in myself? It's only possible by way of a lie which, being a lie, makes it untrue and therefore, not possible at all.
Girl, don't you know, that there's a God that loves you and He's smiling down on you. Right here, right now. And He wants the best for you, girl. He's not pretending so..don't waste your heart on something smaller than love.
A lesson of control will be forever in the plan for my life, I believe.
Hell, by the time I'm finished learning from all the mistakes I will make in my life..I'll be the absolute smartest version of myself! I will know every outcome of every action I will ever take. It's meant to be this way, but it's always still a strange phenomenon to me; we know every part of our past, but absolutely nothing about the future..except that we have one.
"In this world I'm starting to see...that there's more to life, than me." (FX of Grace - Standing Strong)
That lesson is always a painful reality and often harder to learn than the time before.
What's worse...to be constantly reminded of all the things you don't know or to be constantly reminded of all the things you already know but have forgotten?
My opinion changes depending on the situation...maybe I should just agree that they're both equally as disheartening in the time of the circumstance. In the first, you're faced not knowing until after the fact. In the second, you have noone to blame but yourself; nothing but the fact that you forgot to think before you spoke or acted.
As long as I'm human...I will make mistakes. I will speak when I shouldn't. I will stay quiet when I'm meant to be heard. I will accuse. I will respond negatively."Fall down seven times, stand up eight."
HOWEVER...As long as I'm human...I will make mistakes, yes. But I resolve to speak kindly and repay when I falter. I resolve to stop making excuses for why I can't overcome my selfishness of being insensitive towards others and then expect to be even looked at when I'm in my own place of darkness.
And finally, I resolve that while not speaking negatively about others...I will not speak negatively about myself. That's an important one..I seriously believe that how you treat yourself comes out in how you treat others. How can I believe in someone else if I can't believe in myself? It's only possible by way of a lie which, being a lie, makes it untrue and therefore, not possible at all.
Girl, don't you know, that there's a God that loves you and He's smiling down on you. Right here, right now. And He wants the best for you, girl. He's not pretending so..don't waste your heart on something smaller than love.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
This One Is For You And Me, Living Out Our Dreams
This morning at mass...a couple celebrating their 60th wedding anniversary stood in front of hundreds of people and re-commited their lives to each other by renewing their vows.
All I can say is that someday...All I want is to be able to stand beside my husband of 60 years and tell him that I'm more in love now than the day I married him.
S i x t y . y e a r s .
That is a lot of life to live.
All I can say is that someday...All I want is to be able to stand beside my husband of 60 years and tell him that I'm more in love now than the day I married him.
S i x t y . y e a r s .
That is a lot of life to live.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
She Hates the Sound That Goodbyes Make
What do I think? I think you're incredible.
What do I think? I think I've never understood you.
What do I think? I think that if you can move me to tears by simply the written word, I
should give you a whole lot more credit than I have.
What would I say? I'd say you're incredible.
What would I say? I'd say I've never understood you.
What would I say? I'd say the tears don't come often.
What should I do? I should make sure you know how incredible you are.
What should I do? I should try to understand you.
What should I do? I should cry in front of you.
The truth is...I knew. I knew and yet I didn't give you the chance to shine for me.
I made the torment of life harder.
I couldn't make sense of it.
I see it now.
...It's never too late to be brand new.
What do I think?
What would I say?
What should I do?
I think I love you.
I'd say I love you.
I should show you just how much I really do love you.
...Or should I?
What do I think? I think I've never understood you.
What do I think? I think that if you can move me to tears by simply the written word, I
should give you a whole lot more credit than I have.
What would I say? I'd say you're incredible.
What would I say? I'd say I've never understood you.
What would I say? I'd say the tears don't come often.
What should I do? I should make sure you know how incredible you are.
What should I do? I should try to understand you.
What should I do? I should cry in front of you.
The truth is...I knew. I knew and yet I didn't give you the chance to shine for me.
I made the torment of life harder.
I couldn't make sense of it.
I see it now.
...It's never too late to be brand new.
What do I think?
What would I say?
What should I do?
I think I love you.
I'd say I love you.
I should show you just how much I really do love you.
...Or should I?
Monday, October 10, 2011
Saturday, October 8, 2011
A Way to Make Love Stay: You've Got To Give It Away
"There is nothing like returning to a place that remains unchanged to see the ways in which you yourself have altered"
Whether it be a place, or a moment, a memory, or a friendship... we've changed from who we once were.- Nelson Mandela
The simple decision to give in.
You give in so that you'll fit in.
Then, in that moment..you know you've been altered.
Someone once told me, "do what makes your heart SING. That is where you are meant to be."
Then, in that moment of alteration...your soul forgets the words, your pulse forgets the rhythm, your brain forgets the melody and your heart forgets who you were.
You forget.
The change is swift and takes your very identity.
If you can't face yourself. . .who, then, do you have.
What is it that you are willing to risk losing? The things that keep your very life? Are you willing to lose the song your heart sings?
. . . . I'm not.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
w e a l l b l e e d r e d .
Sometimes...what I tell other people is more to convince myself.
"You're worth the world."
"You'll get through it."
And I'm a selfish person, it seems. Hard times have altered nothing in my past that would effect my future.
Clearly it's a terrifying understanding.. To know that what affects my future is more likely my now.
How is it that I could be so confident in my future when it is the present that is crumbling before me?
How is it that other peoples life-changing mistakes are but a fraction to mine, of which some would call, petty?
But they eat at my very soul.
I'm controlled.
Then, discipline is the answer.
I have the right to believe in my dreams.
I have the ability to over come.
Truly, an intention without action should not have been a thought in the first place.
"Will you deny me?"
I can't Lord, by my choice to love.
"You're worth the world."
"You'll get through it."
And I'm a selfish person, it seems. Hard times have altered nothing in my past that would effect my future.
Clearly it's a terrifying understanding.. To know that what affects my future is more likely my now.
How is it that I could be so confident in my future when it is the present that is crumbling before me?
How is it that other peoples life-changing mistakes are but a fraction to mine, of which some would call, petty?
But they eat at my very soul.
I'm controlled.
Then, discipline is the answer.
I have the right to believe in my dreams.
I have the ability to over come.
One
Action
At
A
Time.
Truly, an intention without action should not have been a thought in the first place.
"Will you deny me?"
I can't Lord, by my choice to love.
Sunday, October 2, 2011
"I want you to live, I want you to love. I want to see that smile again...I want you to live."
I know...another youtube video. W A T C H. I T. You will not regret that you did :)
You are beautiful, you are loved and there is a reason you're here today! Share your story..use it to inspire others. You're not alone in this crazy thing we call life. Live everyday like it's the last day you've got! Don't let ANYTHING or ANYONE hold you back from the person you're meant to become! Today is your day to make it all happen. The past doesn't have to depict your future. Choose that today will be different. Take this little bit of a strangers encouragement and use it! With every morning, what is old has been made new and completely transformed.
Cliche? YES! absolutely. True? It has to be!
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