This year will be an incredible challenge of:
- Time management
- Perseverance
- Mental and emotional strength
- The courage to say no
- Self-motivation
- Humility
- Maintaining a prayer life
Challenge Accepted.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Just Keep Your Head Above, Swim
Tomorrow is the last first day of my entire high school career. Whew, wheredoesthetimego?!
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
The Edge of Decision
Never has it been said that one who exists ever really lives. ...Profound, I know."How can I stand beneath the breath of God and not be humbled? How can I stand in God's presence and not be moved?"
Ignite, AB 2011 was a wake up call. Belief is very literally a matter of life or death. And the time is now to make a difference. The salvation of your soul is at risk.
There is a battle between love and hate. Good and bad. The truth and what is false. The side of evil wants you JUST as bad as the side of great glory. just as bad. Because you are that important. I have a feeling that we're worth a whole lot more then we think we are. "You will always have the power to choose..." Yes it's true, the choice is ours. Some of us have already picked. In a great sense, well yes, we choose our own fate, destiny or what have you.
Why were we given the power of free will? Well I believe it's because when you choose to do good, choose to be good and choose to think of goodness, you have also made the preponderant choice to love.
In choosing love, we choose God Himself. There can be nothing greater, nothing better, nothing at all, but God alone.
And I'm not ashamed, I'm unworthy.
And I'm not brainwashed, I choose the truth.
Our heart is restless until we rest in God.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Who Says?
Why do I feel awkward and out of place?
Umm..that state of mind I find myself in randomly that is the state of just simply being and not actually living. WHY? That state of considerable exhaustion and faked sickness.
It's also a sort of embarrassment because I'm incapable at keeping my mouth shut, but mostly, because I'm now afraid of what people think of me. Wow..such an amateur mistake. Now when it comes to clothes or how I look, the possible judgement of others rarely ever crosses my mind at all. However, when it comes to words..or anything that provides a speck of my own vulnerability. . .I could just die in a dark hole. Embarrassment. Awkwardness. Apathetic.
It's truly sad. I don't know, maybe those words were divinely inspired. We'll see.
It's such a funny thing, how nothings funny when it's you.
Umm..that state of mind I find myself in randomly that is the state of just simply being and not actually living. WHY? That state of considerable exhaustion and faked sickness.
It's also a sort of embarrassment because I'm incapable at keeping my mouth shut, but mostly, because I'm now afraid of what people think of me. Wow..such an amateur mistake. Now when it comes to clothes or how I look, the possible judgement of others rarely ever crosses my mind at all. However, when it comes to words..or anything that provides a speck of my own vulnerability. . .I could just die in a dark hole. Embarrassment. Awkwardness. Apathetic.
It's truly sad. I don't know, maybe those words were divinely inspired. We'll see.
It's such a funny thing, how nothings funny when it's you.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Caught in the Inbetween of Beautiful Disaster
She loves her momma's lemonade
Hates the sounds that goodbyes makeShe prays one day she'll find someone to need herShe swears that there's no difference between the lies and complimentsIt's all the same if everybody leaves her
And every magazine tells her she's not good enoughThe pictures that she sees makes her cry
She would change everything, everything, just ask herCaught in the in between of beautiful disasterShe just needs someone to take her home
She's giving boys what they wantTries to act so nonchalantAfraid to see that she's lost her directionShe never stays the same for longAssuming that she'll get it wrongPerfect only in her imperfection
She's not a drama queenShe doesn't wanna feel this wayOnly 17 and tired, yeah
She would change everything for happy ever afterCaught in the in between of beautiful disasterShe just needs someone to take her home
She's just the way she isBut no one's told her that's OK
She would change everything, everything, just ask herCaught in the in between of beautiful disasterShe would change everything for happy ever afterCaught in the in between of beautiful disasterShe just needs someone to take her homeShe just needs someone to take her home
I know too much.
I know his side but that awkward moment when you have to pretend you know nothing when talking to her. Wow this might cause another sleepless night. I always do this. Will I ever learn? And then you get everything all mixed up in your head and can't remember who said what and you take forever to decide if something is okay to say and you still have doubts because you're afraid of saying the wrong thing and making the situation worse.
ohhhh dearrrrr. Good one, self...
I know his side but that awkward moment when you have to pretend you know nothing when talking to her. Wow this might cause another sleepless night. I always do this. Will I ever learn? And then you get everything all mixed up in your head and can't remember who said what and you take forever to decide if something is okay to say and you still have doubts because you're afraid of saying the wrong thing and making the situation worse.
ohhhh dearrrrr. Good one, self...
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Oh The Places You'll Go
Here I am again, thinking about the future. This time I'm excited about it though. I have one very tough grade 12 year to get through and then I'm FREE!
I was thinking and praying and hoping and searching for what I'm supposed to do when I finish high school. Dreading the question, "what are you going to do after high school?" And e v e r y o n e asks like, are they just making conversation or do they actually care what I do with my life?
Well, regardless I think I have my answer. I'm taking a year off to most likely join the NET team. Basically I realized that this is what I've always wanted to do. To travel while sharing my faith and inspiring others the way I have been inspired. It simply joy! And all the questions of why? how? with what money? what if? what about the future? Are suddenly answered by the simple counter-question of, why not? Hello...this is your future. Money will come, trust God. What if what? What if you don't immediately go to university and people judge you because the world has certain expectations that you're clearly not going to meet. "Sometimes you have to dissapoint others in order to not dissapoint God."
Now it's not to say I'll never go to university. No, just not now.
People always say.."Oh you're young, you've got plenty of time." Uhh actually, the way I see it, time is ticking and I'm ready! I mean, what are these people thinking, encouraging me to wait and wait. What, exactly, am I waiting for? Waiting for someone else to do what I'm meant to do? Umm yeah, no!
Change is not made by people who simply wait for opportunities, they're made by the people who choose to be proactive and create oppotunities. Made by people who finally decide that they simply can't stand it anymore.
These are the people who are no longer 'average' or 'ordinary,' but extraordinary and they're also commonly known as the saints of the church. We're all called to be saints. So riddle me this...WHY can we simply stand to sit still?
THIS MOMENT IS AN OPPORTUNITY.
I was thinking and praying and hoping and searching for what I'm supposed to do when I finish high school. Dreading the question, "what are you going to do after high school?" And e v e r y o n e asks like, are they just making conversation or do they actually care what I do with my life?
Well, regardless I think I have my answer. I'm taking a year off to most likely join the NET team. Basically I realized that this is what I've always wanted to do. To travel while sharing my faith and inspiring others the way I have been inspired. It simply joy! And all the questions of why? how? with what money? what if? what about the future? Are suddenly answered by the simple counter-question of, why not? Hello...this is your future. Money will come, trust God. What if what? What if you don't immediately go to university and people judge you because the world has certain expectations that you're clearly not going to meet. "Sometimes you have to dissapoint others in order to not dissapoint God."
Now it's not to say I'll never go to university. No, just not now.
People always say.."Oh you're young, you've got plenty of time." Uhh actually, the way I see it, time is ticking and I'm ready! I mean, what are these people thinking, encouraging me to wait and wait. What, exactly, am I waiting for? Waiting for someone else to do what I'm meant to do? Umm yeah, no!
Change is not made by people who simply wait for opportunities, they're made by the people who choose to be proactive and create oppotunities. Made by people who finally decide that they simply can't stand it anymore.
These are the people who are no longer 'average' or 'ordinary,' but extraordinary and they're also commonly known as the saints of the church. We're all called to be saints. So riddle me this...WHY can we simply stand to sit still?
THIS MOMENT IS AN OPPORTUNITY.
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