For example: I don't like people who are attention-seeking, and yet many times, I myself am that exact way. I don't like people who think the only way is their way, and yet I caught myself being that exact way just today. I don't, at all, like when a person says something negative about themselves just so that the people around them will say the opposite in affirmation.
I'll be honest, it actually frustrates me. But what frustrates me is that I am so AWARE of the fact that I possess all these qualities but I am constantly fighting to change them daily.
How much I am humbled when my first reaction is to entertain the judgement that is automatically passed in my mind when someone does something of said nature..and then I realize that I too, at some point, have done the same. THAT is the frustrating part of it all.
I don't want to be angry about such a dumb thing, but I am. I don't want other people to mess up and I don't want myself to mess up.
Yes, I realize that last statement was even dumber.
Contrary to this mess I've created, I like myself. I just don't like seeing my own flaws in other people. I guess I'm probably the same as everyone else because, if you were to think about it, who really does like to be made aware of their flaws? I secretly like the bliss that ignorance creates. But I don't like that I like that.
Sigh...
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